Seems like forever since I was able to sit down, and just write for the sake of writing. It’s been so long, I think I’ve almost forgotten myself!
So much has happened over the last week. So much that needs to come out, to spill to keys, and on to ‘virtual page’ that it’s at times overwhelming…
I’ve made it to Hinesville, Georgia, a small town about 50 miles outside of Savannah to start my life with what I’d thought I’d lost so many years ago….my family.
Seems kind of surreal still knowing that I’ve got the two people that are still my life…even though 5 years ago that was a totally different story. It’s far more than I could have ever wished for! The trailer we’ve moved into, with its 3 bedrooms, and 2 baths, dark blue carpet, gas heat, stove, and electric hot water heater is cozy, comfortable, and I hope happy to have a family living under its roof. Even if there’s still one person missing. You see, Alvin’s still in Daytona, spending Christmas with his family, before he makes the trip here later in the week. DragonPrincess, Littlefoot and I are making ready his room, and bath, and settling into the rest of the house. But with the joy of being with my family again… there is sadness…
You see my former room-mates have paced me on the ‘most hated person’ list. All because I wanted to bring back something that meant more to me than breath itself. And my best friend, the one person who understood just how much it meant for me to be here, decided to join me in this adventure. But, there’s more than one reason Alvin’s still in Daytona, and I’m here in Georgia….
You see, some people can’t just leave some things alone. Some people just can’t be happy for others. They have to create misery, to make them happy. Sad part is the ones they only really hurt was themselves. Rumor, innuendo, and ‘supposed knowledge’ were the detriment to a 20 year plus friendship. Information that was given to them by a person that Alvin was involved with. Information that was not only way off the mark against his character, but detrimental to ones like myself, all because she wanted out of a relationship she no longer wanted. My former room-mates chose to believe the ravings of this lunatic, and tried their best to drive a wedge between us, my family and myself, and make my life more complicated than it had to be. It didn’t work… Alvin’s still on his way here, albeit a week later than planned. But, he will be here. So what did they win? Absolutely nothing.
This Christmas is both painted with joy, and tinged with sadness. Because you see, people whom I thought cared about me really showed that all I was worth to them was the rent money they received. And when that was no longer an option…Revenge mattered more than anything else. But what did revenge get them? Before you ask, yes, I could have joined them. I could have played into their hands… But, I didn’t. And, I became the better for it. And end the end, all I lost was something I really never had…and they; well they lost far more than they thought…
So, as I end this, with a glass of eggnog in my hand, and a saddened smile, I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas, and to say three words to two people that shouldn’t even get this much of a gift…
I Forgive You…